it feels weird talking to john again. its just weird. 

i mean like this time 2 years ago, it was so different. 

weird. 

slowwww down. 

this is the feeling i hate. its a low classless feeling. eh i cannot describe it but lately i’ve just pretending that i’m okay by staying busy.

while, this is really bringing me down. 

sometimes. when the moment is just right, my friend and i pretend to be a violent couple to see the reaction of others. he pretends to be abusive and i pretend to be the victim. he’ll fuss at me for making mistakes or saying something stupid and the pretend to grab me threatening to “kick my ass” when we “get home”. 

surprisingly though people tend to look veryyy alarmed that this is going on, no one has ever done anything about it. 

it’s quite funny. especially when he does the whole “you made me hit you. do you think i wanted to hit you?” 

and i say “yes, i’m sorry its my fault. i made you hit me.”  

keahnicole replied to your post: i literally have this whole story line about my…

I have my own Usher story too! you are not alone.

i literally have this whole story line about my imaginary life with usher raymond. and it dates all the way back to 7th grade. i imagine that usher and i were childhood friends who took one another’s virginity in high school and we lost touch a little when he became famous but found one another again during his confessions fame. and i imagine that the reason he cancelled his wedding at the last minute was because he remembered me and they got divorced because he realized he loved me… his childhood friend who knows him best. and finally he and i get married and i raise his sons like my own and we live happily ever after. 

i sound insane but this is true. 

all she said was ew. and then proceeded to ask me who’d be seeing them. ha the only person to see them will be either usher or bruno mars. 

kvnhernandez asked: I hope so... cause that wouldn't be cool, and yes. Hahaha I mean you went in on somebody and I THOUGHT IT WAS WEAK. I wished I saved it hahaha..

hahah no you haven’t made the wall kevin. lol. but haha i went on so many people that picture is actually cropped. there are way more sticky notes than that. lol. what sticky note made you laugh though? 

kvnhernandez asked: Talk about putting niggas on blast, lol and that kevin better not be me cause I can say Quesadilla. lol

omg you can read the sticky notes? now i have to delete that post. lol. omg i’m embarassed……….. 

and of course it’s not you. lol